Friday, March 30, 2012

Writer's Insanity--- FEAR

Writers’ Insanity.

I’ve been meaning to write this for a while.  As a write I’m am consumed by fear.  
Here’s a brief list of very personal fears I have when it comes to my writing:
 
1) What if I’m not good enough?
2) What if I fail?
3) What if I end up being the only one of my friends without an agent?
4) What if I get an agent?
5) What if the agent can’t sell my book?
6) What if the agent does sell my book and people read it?
7) What if this is all a huge waste of time?
8) What if I look back on my time and think, I should have played with my kid more?
9) What if I’m successful?
10) What if I’m forced to quit my job as a teacher? (which if you know me by now, you know I LOVED IT)


That’s just a small sampling of fears I have.  My biggest fears are  7 and 8.

And yet despite these fears, I really want to query.  Why?  Because even though I know odds favor rejection, its hope that someone will like it, someone will request it and hope beyond hope maybe an agent will offer me a contract.

For all the rejection and fears it’s the thrill of acceptance that I hope for.  

Anyone else feel the same way? 

4 comments:

  1. I know exactly what you mean. I've had most of these fears myself (number 7 and 8 especially too) It's a part of being a writer after all!

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  2. I think these are all a part of it, and that it's totally normal to have these fears. I think the difference between being published or not is whether you keep at it, despite all the fears. :0)

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  3. It sounds like being a teenager. The insecurity, wanting to fit in and etc can all be cross applied. ~lintroller821

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